Memang, tidak ada namanya perpisahan yang baik-baik. Cuma butuh sedikit waktu, Niela. 


I almost do.

Hello, fairies. I'm back on my track now. Being struggle with college thingy lately, overwhelmed. Facing homework, paper, final project, final report do make me like *h#!%^&$}{{$%##. You can simply read it as Aaargh. When I do tired with all that things, I spell magic words from Mrs. Maria, my college teacher "Am I moving or progressing?" And to be honest, it works. I don't want to be someone who just moving, doing all homework, paper, final project or final report just because these are their duty. What I want is progressing, get some added values for myself after doing that things. Simple, but we often forget it. Well, for you who asking am I still with him, I have to answer no for that question. It has been over for 3 years we're being together, and it was very hard to let someone who ever be your everything to go. And I'm still trying to get over that. But life must goes on, people said. Maybe he's not my other-half but I'm very grateful have ever thought he would be. Thank you for being my best in 3 years lately, and forgive me for all mistakes that I ever did, for all painful you ever felt. Live your life wisely, dear one. 

And I just wanna tell you, it takes everything in me not to call you.
And I wish I could run to you, and I hope you know every time I don't, I almost do.


Do you wear your best apology?

Can't explain why I'm feeling so messed up right now. Maybe it's you, me or us.
" I find you at my door, just like all this times before. You wear your best apology, but I was there to watch you leave. And all the times I let you in, just for you to go again"
I think, you didn't wear your best apology. And I'm asking you, why you break my heart in the blink of an eye?